It's been 5 years

Hey, it's been 5 years since the first post on this blog. I have returned to log a post.

Within the circle of friends or acquaintances of the group that started this blog, most of them picked up jobs, some pursued postgraduate degrees and second degrees, while a small fraction vanished into society.

I am writing for myself to update any lingering readers of this blog.

Things have taken a dark turn. The rumor of MD's lab being a hell-hole is true. No one speaks of continuing, everyone is regrets in joining. What do I think? Vocally I would disown him as everyone else, but a personal fear has taken it it as a place to squander my life and wasting my parents money. They say a person who endures long term suffering is actually making the choice, conscious or not, to suffer. Many a person is a voluntary slave.

Lately I have been taking on climbing onto high places, and catching myself doing potentially disastrous physical acts. My mind is scrambled when I try to think about things, and focusing on the notion of work fills me with a cold dread of oblivion. Motivation is non-existent while I plug my head into distractions, such as writing this blog post or winging it in some alternate non-related-to-work event. Passing a day with nothing done is becoming the norm and as weeks turn into months, I wonder if I would ever recover from this slump of life. The vicious spiral of procrastination has its grip on me. What would I do about it? Start working upwards when tomorrow becomes today.

Dreams, once bright with hope and anticipation, are becoming dull and faded images mired with dark streaks of fear, helplessness, or desperation. Opportunities swoop by as flying doors, teasing my reach, with mocking laughter echoing through the opened cracks. Company turns into pain sessions, any success story giving a searing mental burn, while misfortunes soothe with a bad aftertaste. I have been placing distance to keep my sanity. Graduating seems like the solution, but the panic monster for it has turned into mush. A mush that fills the space in my mind. dark primal fears haunting from within awaiting the feast of my rationality. A vice, I am caught, between accepting fate and mutual destruction.

Idleness, woe is me.

蓝～蓝～路！！！

大家一起跟着麦当劳叔叔做吧！蓝～蓝～路！！！

Pre-master Degree

Hearsay MD has a flair for being a good businessman. Equipped with good persuasion skills and a knack for false promises, many a graduate student has he swayed from 正道, leaving them in the bitter winds of a graduate student.

Hearsay lab assistant with enough history can hold a 5k monthly salary also. Low-level lab assistant gets 2k salary, but can afford a RM1000++ smartphone. Do they cheat with a low base salary but a high allowance?

It was also noticed that lab assistants are veteran tea drinkers. They drink very slowly for maximum time.

Hearsay we don’t bother about the school’s inventory as there aren’t many auditors regarding that part. Things that are not needed can be trashed here and there without much regard for collateral damage.

Hearsay Johor is fertile land for…?

Selamat Hari Raya

Rumor has it that everyone is going back during Raya because it is a long holiday.

Hearsay you can't pump your tire full before long journey, because the internal pressure will rise from heat of the tire's friction and expand more than it's capacity. It would lead to an explosive burst at high speeds if you're on the highway.

Hearsay the police are also very hardworking at earning duit raya, and more speed traps have been set up along the road. Hearsay all summons are sent to "syarikat swasta" as "gaji" le. Have to look out for speed limits le.

Hearsay that twilight and direct noon are bad times for travelling as visibility is poor. Twilight is where everybody have different ideas of when to turn on the headlights, making it difficult to discern other vehicles. In noon there is just too much sun, and it's hot. It is believed that travelling too much in direct sunlight has detriment effects on one's eyesight, so get a pair of sunglasses to filter out the harmful rays.

Hearsay the direction of north to south is more lenient that south to north. Hearsay got people can do an overtake maneuver with the left side of the highway lane. Hearsay they're a time bomb for accidents.

Hearsay you can avoid all that if you use the plane. Hearsay car accidents are more prone to aircraft accidents, though the fatality level is way different.

Hearsay mostly everyone will be back again after Raya.

Happy Hari Raya~!

愚人节前夕

听说这几天将是个饭店做promotion的日子，大家都忙着捞荷包涨肚子。
而听说雨天和睡眠都给食物打败了，风吹雨打、清晨三时，门口都人潮济济。
最强的是，听说有连续三日的早午餐都是麦当劳的强汉。
有消息说：今天截至的麦当劳，三点就有人不眠地等了。（还需排队呢！）

听说来日的Manhattan fish stall，Baskin Robbins，和Sushi King已被各人写在日程表里了。
听说考试也是愚人节的好笑话（207）

11/8/12

听说要爆料的人都要有进监牢的决心，因为是大马的文化。

听说文法是一个不合逻辑的东西，不能用 Calculus 还是 QM 来和它理论。
听说规矩就是规矩。

听说老人都是要尊敬的。听说印度的 internet 是七上八下的。
听说 Tamil 是马来西亚其中一个暗语，跟不上是你的损失。

听说工作界大家都在用 touchscreen 的电子仪器了，是时尚。
听说要开始拉回那时候的无聊了。

听说小结局

听说，大家都开始个跑个的了；大学生涯已在眨眼间到了散会的时候了。在人生中开始崭新的一页，努力让自己独立。

工作的社会，有了同学们的身影；如草丛中的羊儿，尝试嫩草，舔舐着成人味觉。听说个个都觉得还OK。


回到高学府深造的也不少，凭着七零八怪的原因都只是想寻找自己的小天地。虽然听说还是没人真正入府，但都祈祷大家都能安全着落并努力为梦想操劳。



当然，也没忘了四年课程的朋友们，继续努力了！Final Year 加油！

听说，这还没完呢……